MAN IN A SON

I look at my son and wonder
If I'll have the answers
Or the strength
To explain where daddy went
Why mommy is all he has
I look at his innocent eyes
I see the the gift I didn't expect
Even if he is So alike his father
I will raise him to be nothing like him
The monster,
The man who took everything I had
Left me out in the dark
Picking up the pieces
Trying not to fall apart
Holding on to fading hope.

I look at my son and wonder
If one day he'll learn the truth
From the lies I told
That daddy didn't die
Daddy wasn't a soldier
He never fought for his country
He never held him
Not even once.
Daddy was a coward
Daddy had no soul
Daddy was a monster
But until that day
His daddy will always be
The hero he'll never know
I look at my son and wonder
If I have done right by him
By raising him like a man
Who respects life
Fights for what is right
Stands up for the weak
Have I taught him of love
Kindness and respect
Have I given him hope
Of a better future.
I look into his eyes
And I see the man his father never was
I see a real man